Here’s yet another unindentified song! It’s got no title, but its from Inspirational Moments 3, a new age compilation album. The odd thing is, I googled and discovered that the tracklist only featured 16 songs. The rest, im guessing, are probably unlisted bonus tracks.

One thing I know about this song is that in its video, it shows 2 capoeristas fighting. The entire shows depicts those 2 bald sweaty muscular men moving in slow motioned beautiful arcs at magnificent lighting and camera angles.

If anyone knows the title of this song let me know!

Yep. Nothing describes how I feel right now better than this.

I’ve been up all night getting Luna back in shape. It seems I’m getting this ‘Delayed Write Failure’ messages whenever I use torrents. I’m Googling for some solutions right now, after spending some gruesome hours trying to reinstall Windows.

Bleackh. Maybe I should run Linux after all.

Update:

I did plenty of things to fix the damned problem. The culprit seems to be torrents. I get the same errors no matter where I save them. Like, wtf? Why can’t I fucking use torrents anymore!? This is fucking gay. I can’t use ANY BT clients. Not bitcomet, not bittornado, not even the original Bittorrent!

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

I hate it when my energy levels are constantly low. Especially at this time of the year when lab reports, assignments, tutorials, quizzes, midterms, notes reading, throwing out the trash, filling up petrol, changing the engine oil, keeping myself from falling too hard, getting to classes on time, downloading new anime episodes and burning out old anime is piling up.

Not doing anything feels wrong. Yet nothing I do feels right. AAHHHHH GIVE ME MY LIFE BACK!

Yes, I scrapped the Gallery software I installed into my server. I now run my gallery on the much much lighter Pixelpost, instead. Clean, sleek and simple. Just the way I want it. That way you get to enjoy the images without distractions from a sidebar and what not.

The same link is on the left side, it’s The Silentscope, by the way.Hope you like it :)

I don’t mind having my picture taken. But unfortunately, most of the pictures of me are very… simple. Pose, smile, click. Pose, look at the lens, click. I find it… wasteful. Don’t even start about asking me to take my own pictures, I’m not a camwhore, and not too interested to become one, either.

I don’t like to be inside a regular potrait or group photo. You know, oh there’s a beautiful park, go stand there and let me take a picture of you! Bleh.

I’m not photogenic, I’ll be the first to admit. That’s why a regular picture doesn’t help to make me look any better. A good portrait photo can make even a wrinkly old bum on street look like the wisest man around. It’s not that I don’t want to be in a picture.

I just don’t want to be in a picture that makes me feel bad about myself.

It’s not just a matter of being cocky or bitchy, but it’s really my own way to preserve and heighten my self-esteem. I’ve been through the hell of hating how I look. After struggling out of it, I can finally be happy with how I am and even be narcissistic about it. And I’m not looking forward to going through that hell again.

On many occasions where I’m behind the lens, and especially during my brother’s recent wedding, I’ve had people saying stuff like

“Kesian awak, asyik ambik gambar orang. Takde sapa pun ambik gambar awak. Nak Akak tolong ambik?”

No thanks, Kak. Being before lens could never beat being behind it. Being a subject might be cool and fun, but for the ones who have spent enough time behind the lens, releasing the shutter… they know better. Happy, fun, happening people couldn’t possibly understand what it feels like to be proud of something that you produced with your own hands.

I love being behind the lens. Don’t feel sorry for me if I don’t have any pictures of myself, I would decline even if you offered. Unless I’m sure the person could make me look good, it’s very unlikely that I will ask for a picture of me to be taken.

I’m happy being behind the lens. Let me stay there.