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Gee,.. thanks for reading and appreciating the things. But if you wanna use any of my writings, can you please be decent enough to give me some credit for it? I can see that you’ve got a fucked up english, and that you’re trying your best to improve it by blogging and I applaud that effort.

But by blatantly copying an entire passage and pasting it onto your blog, without any mention of the author is just wrong. And it pisses me off. You should understand that the stuff I write here [even the pointless nonsensical ones] have some copyrights entitled to them. Did you miss it? Look at the bottom of my sidebar, there’s a green button and something that says “This work is licensed under a Creative Commons License.” Shit man, you didn’t even ask for my permission or you could have been freed from my bitching.

Yes, I’m a little bit infuriated by what you did, but I believe it’s more important that you realise the greater problem behind the copyrights issue. If you happen to steal someone’s work, you may well be violating his intellectual property rights and you may get your sorry flaccid ass sued and get yourself stuck in some seriously deep shit.

Give credit where credit is due. If it doesn’t belong to you, don’t claim it to be.

*update*

That fucker even took one of my ‘Eggheads’ strips and put his bloody nick on it [thanks, Sashi!]. Now, now, I uploaded that strip onto my deviantART account and dA has officially granted me the copyrights to that artwork. I can’t fucking believe it! I don’t even make any titanic achievements with my works yet you still want to rob me of some minor self-gratification? Give me a fucking break already!

I don’t really like writing about my sadness. Though I find much comfort in doing so, by the time I finish writing it, I certain sense of guilt would overwhelm me. Simply because I’m reminding myself how weak and powerless I am whenever something bad happens. I don’t like to be reminded of my vulnerability.

But really, at some point, I just can’t hold it anymore, and I just pour and pour and pour.

I’m having a bit of miscommunication issues with you. I say one thing, you hear it differently. You say one thing, and I think you meant something else. I don’t know about you, though, but I tend to analyse every single thing that you say and do. And from there I derive what you’re up to and prepare the things I should constantly making mental notes ready to be picked and used at the right moment.

And for that I have been very afraid.

Afraid that by being too analytical it would cost me my sanity. The harder I try to see through things the more complicated things get. And tire myself thinking over pointless hypotheses. After realised how stupid that was, I decided on the other option.

To not give a fuck about it.

After all, it’s only an emotional scar. It’s not like I lost an arm or something. That would easily let me focus on other things that can make me happy. Because when I’m much happier, I am calmer, and I can make reasonable decisions. So, I decided to do away with my ego and thought of patching things up with you. Only to hear a nervous male voice answering on the other end of the line.

Before I knew it all that happiness and cheerful spirit has gone. In its place is a fiery rage that accelerates my heartbeats and heats up my skin. Gone was the thought of asking for forgiveness and the willingness to grant it. Gone was the cheer and joy and stories I wanted to share. It would just be better if I continued to not give a fuck about it anyway. I was happy doing the things I love, and you’re happy with the guy you’re in love with. It’s a win-win deal, why screw it up?

That’s when I realised, I can’t afford to not give a fuck about it. As much I tried not to, I find myself looking for ways to see how you’re doing. I tried not directly contact you, for fear that I may lose myself to my own darkness and say the things I don’t intend to say. With what resources I have, I searched and found, and have constantly followed what you have been up to.

I wonder why.

Everytime I’m enjoying the company of ladies, I’m reminded of you. And the wonderful memories. I don’t know about other guys, but personally, no memory beats the ones you share with a special woman. And everytime good things have happened, the first thing that struck in my head, was to share it with you. It’s become a habit. Everytime it happens I’ll take a few seconds to recompose myself, and shove the thought elsewhere. It’s still happening. Right to this very moment.

So many things have happened. So much joy. So much laughter. But none to share it with, not anymore. All because I refuse to. Because if I ever do so, I wouldn’ enjoy the same results as I used to. Not anymore. I know you’re there. I can understand that you’re worried.

I’m worried about you as well. Because I still love you. Bcause I’m angry at you. Because I hated you. Because I have yet to forgive you. Because I have yet to ask for forgiveness from you. Because there was so much confusion. Because you hid things from me. And that I hid things from you. I don’t think we ever lied to each other other, but we regularly hide the truth, only revealing what we deem is necessary.

I want to talk to you to settle this. Will I ever get to?

First of all I would like to thank you for participating in the Guessing Game. I can’t even begin to express my gratitude and I can’t thank you enough. As promised, today I shall unveil to you the secrets behind the Guessing Game; how it came about, it’s intended purpose, and how it was done.

It originally started as a feature article on photography that I was writing for the company I used to work for. I wanted to write about DOF at first, so I asked Albert to bring his Transformers to the office because I would bring my Gundam and we could use them to make various sample shots for my article. I was very lucky to have Albert with me because he’s also taken quite an interest into digital photography and we’re both pretty enthusiastic about conducting experiments.

During one of the shots, an idea sparked in my mind.

We discussed and exchanged ideas regarding the basic theories of perspective and image depth. Hence came the idea to try to make a small subject appear larger or about the same size as another subject, which is of course, bigger. So now, let me introduce you the stars of our show;

Alright. Now, here comes the technical part. I initiated the Guessing Game as a little project to keep myself occupied during the dull holidays. The entire contest encompasses two different experiments. I ran it on my blog so that to expose it to a decent sample space; regular common people. Unfortunately, I don’t have a control group, so I can’t make any comparative measures between results. Which suits me enough, as I just wanted to see if I could execute certain things and get the expected results. The two experiments are:

a] Perspective Optical Illusion
b] Reverse Psychology

I will explain experiment [a] first, simply because it’s fun. Alright. On the contest, i mentioned that I printed some straight lines on a piece of A4 paper. Of course, you would assume that I would be printing this;

I did not lie when I said that I was printing straight lines. But I didn’t say that the lines were parallel. That’s right. I printed straight lines that converge at one end. Like this one.

Lines like that are easy to make with photoshop. Well, I printed that, and I set up a simple white background using the white sides of two posters, like so;

At that point it’s just a matter of trying different subject positioning and shooting angles, and one of my attempts can be seen in the image below.

The illusion works by establing a false sense of distance, and this is achieved by using the straight lines I printed. Okay, picture this. A series of parallel lines would seem to meet at one point due to perspective, right? And the further it is, the closer those lines come together. Basing on this, I used the set of converging lines, to create an extra distance because the already small gaps between the lines will close even smaller, thus creating the illusory distance.

Due to perspective, you were tricked into thinking that the lines are parallel, and that’s why they seem converge at the furthest point. To further strengthen this illusion, I placed Jazz in front, where the lines diverge, and Freedom at the back, where the lines converge. I also spread Freedom’s legs and wings a bit, so that it looks as though it takes up more space on the ground, due to the number of lines it covers.

Again, due to the illusory distanece, and that you perceive those lines as parallel, I tried to trick you into using the lines as reference to comparatively measure the sizes of both subjects. Jazz seems to cover less lines than Freedom, and this would attempt trick you into calculating that Jazz is smaller.

Now, allow me to explain the second part of the Game, the reverse psychology that I attempted. Take note on how I did the whole write-up;

Due to perspective, the Gundam may look smaller than the Transformers, but is that really the case? The Transformers looks bigger, but maybe because it’s in front? Or maybe it’s the same size? Is Gundam bigger? Or is the Transformers bigger? You might want to consider that the Gundam is leaning forward with its knees bent as well.

In the write-up I tried to make you doubt any initial thoughts that Jazz is bigger than Freedom. I wrote it so it looks as though I’m hinting that Freedom is bigger. This style of writing is something I have been experimenting for quite a while, just to see if different approaches to exposing information would bring any different results.

Just for extra fun, I gave you an extra hint in the Last Call entry. The bus and gargoyle are borrowed, so I didn’t get the chance to take a comparative shot, but I assure you that the bus is the smaller of the two. I also used the same set of lines, just that I put the converging end in front and the diverging end at the back. Since straight lines come closer together at a distance, the diverging lines come together nicely to form what looks like a set of parallel lines, once again tricking your perception.

At the end of seven days, I received about 20 replies, on the contest page, MSN and Yahoo. The results were very amusing, as 90% of the participants got it wrong. 3 people thought that both are of the same size, while the other 15 said that Freedom is bigger. Since this itself is an illusion, I really wish to reward the ones who would be able to see through it.

And today, the Guessing Game draws to a close, and I am happy to declare it as a succesful event. A big thanks to Albert for some shots behind the scenes and for being a great help to make the experiments work. But more importantly, thank YOU for taking part and contributing to the success!

I can’t promise much, but whenever a new idea rolls in, and when I have extra cash, I might run another contest like this. Once again, thank you!

The thing about forgiveness is really about asking for it rather than granting it. I mean, don’t you think it’s easier to forgive rather than ask to be forgiven. One of the reasons why friendships break and sweet things turn sour is because there’s a certain wall that you just can’t seem to tear down.

When there’s a misunderstanding, especially between close friends, the pain is more intense when the friendship is deeper. Even more so if there’s an exchange of romantic feelings.

Afraid to be seen as weak.
Afraid to be seen as being at fault.
Afraid of arguing.
Afraid of saying the things you don’t intend to say.
Afraid of getting yourself hurt.
Afraid of getting the other person hurt.

And then you decide to avoid all this. By avoiding your friend completely. Because really, the thing that makes asking for forgiveness such a difficult task isn’t really about your pride. It’s about your fears, isn’t it? I can’t be more obvious when it comes to pointing out that problems won’t get solved if you’re stubborn. It doesn’t help if you keep pointing fingers, either.

Tear it down. That wall of fear, that is.

If you keep waiting for the other person to open up, you’re going to have to wait for a long time before anything is solved. It’ll be a long awkward walk for both you. Go ahead, lower your head, speak clearly, and apologize. Of course, if the other person asks the same from you, open up and relief yourself of that burden.

That would make it much easier to live on the when sun rises later.

Well, it’s been 7 days since I ran the Guessing Game and it seems like I’ve been getting a decent number of participants. If you have missed it, well, you have my sincerest apologies; but hey, it’s not my fault you don’t come here often, The Silent Room updates on a daily basis, you know! I even announced it on PPS, MalaysiaBloggers, even on my Yahoo and MSN, because I really want to show you my gratitude for being a regular in the Room!

Oh, well, without further ado, I asked you to tell me which of the 2 subjects are bigger, by looking at this photo:

Plenty have left their answers in the comments or have said it to me through Yahoo and MSN. I must say, I’m very pleased at the amount of reactions I get. Well, time for the burning question; did you win that Frappucino?.

Click here to see if you won.

Ahahahahahaa!!! Well, as far as the Guessing Game goes, I hereby announce that Ms. Zahra and Mr. Kenny Lee have both won the game! Zahra gave me the correct answer through MSN, and Kenny in the comments of the contest page.

Congratulations, both of you! However, as much as I want to treat both of you, I can only afford ONE Frappucino. So the one who gets to meet up with me first gets the treat! If you didn’t win the contest, well, I’m truly sorry. Maybe when I get richer I can run another contest, and maybe you can win that one!

Opps, we’re not done, yet! Surely you’re not satisfied with the results are you? As a sign of gratitude for participating, tomorrow I will explain to you everything about the Guessing Game, including some shots behind scenes and the people who helped to make it succesful!

I will also explain some simple ideas and some fun things you can do with photography! Have a nice day!