Sigh. My feelings are so mixed up I’m beginning to jumble up my lines as well.
I know. I know. I should get over it. I just don’t know why. I’m not sure if she even visits this place anymore.

“Curiosity killed the cat, you know”
“What makes you think I am one?”
“well…”
“Just tell me. Please. I really need to know.”

She was right. Even if it didn’t kill me, it left me with a gaping wound. Just when I thought it healed, being the idiot that I am, I went digging around. I still remember that night. That very fateful night. I hated myself for being such an idiotic jerk that night.

“I am, sort of, seeing this guy, you know.”
“Okay…”
“But we’re not exactly here, nor there. Get what I mean?”

Curiosity dealt another blow on me yet again. At first I thought mentions of him wouldn’t bother me. If she happens to read this, I’m sure she’d be very freaked out and would be scared shit to even be within a radius of 100 metres from me. Surely, this undying obsession would scare anyone. I don’t know how to rid myself of this pain. Of course, a happy ending is out of the question. At least for me. And I confirmed this upon discovering him mentioning;

“…in the end i chose Yum Char as our dinner place for the evening. Nice calming decor; and comfy seats! (only because i can have her close to me without too much trouble… =p)”

“Hahaha, damn i’m blessed to have such an adorable girlfriend.”

I have always believed it when I hear them say ‘May the best man win’. I still do. Opportunity, ability, availabilty,intelligence and of course, charm. I wouldn’t say we were pitched against each other, but if it’s about winning, he sure pwned big.

“…and so, everyone lived happily ever after”

And my eyes won’t let me cry any silent tears.

I love the cinema. Especially on Wednesdays because they’re cheaper on Wednesdays and that they sell Chachos, so I can buy them from the anchor supermarket downstairs with some mineral water instead of old the boring popcorn. I heard the Chacos go EXTREMELY well with some mayonnaise, is that true? If it is, I might sneak a few of those small Mayo packs you can buy for RM 1 each. Heheh, that’ll have to wait for another Wednesday.

Anyway, today I went to catch the show everyone has been talking about: Alexander.

I did a bit of homework, learnt that the dude really did die of poisoning and that he was a bisexual. Also from a encyclopedia I remember reading when I first learnt of the Great One, when he died in his 30s he was said to have looked like a man in his late 70s due to his war-waging years.

The movie, well, the movie was…how do I say this…rather…dissapointing.

Here’s why. The director sure paid Mr. Hopkins a lot of money to narrate the story of Alexander. So much, that it seems like the whole movie was a boring lecture in Ancient History with a few short clips merely featuring a gay Alexander. I’m dissapointed because the movie portrayed Alexander as more gay than he is Bi. Well, I don’t know enough history to know whether or not he actually IS gay, but if I was an airhead with no freaking idea who this dude Alexander is before the goddamn movie,…

…I’d seriously do a Cartman’s ‘Dude, he’s a fucking homo!’.

To be completely frank with you, I don’t mind gay people. But please la, I’m sure Alexander appreciates women much than he is shown as.

Okay, enough about his sexuality, I’d rather discuss the movie than put myself at the mercy of angry bapoks at Melaka town. So, you see, Mr. Hopkin was like narrating the story of Alexander to his scribe, who effeciently takes down every fucking word he spits out. If his voice was running in the background that’s perfectly fine. But damn, I’m not a movie director so maybe that’s some new shit in the cinematography art that I know nothiing of. Still, the fact that he gets a lot of screen time, and that the time skips were a bit TOO long.

Guh. It’s like, first, he conquered this city, then as the old geezer talks, it appeared as though he magically pwned 3 more. At least show some fighting scenes even if its just a few seconds just to show that they actually fought a few goddamn wars! And then he was all ready to siege India, wtf?

“They fought the barbarians”

They only time I get to see barbarians are when they showed dead ones, post-conflict. Seriously, I feel that Alexander has got to have the worst flow a movie could ever have.

HOWEVER

This doesn’t mean I didn’t enjoy Alexander. Sure, it’s a magnificent story horribly told, but it’s still a fucking amazing story. A tale of a man who reached beyond the limits, who went that extra few hundred thousand miles to conquer that glory that he always spoke and dreamed of.

There’s a reason why I enjoy movies. It’s because I believe every movie has an angle in which it excels at. Some movies are so good, it excels at all angles. But let’s focus on Alexander. I was under the impression that Alexander would be another Troy, or Gladiator. It turns out I wasn’t too far off target.

Movies of ancient civilisations going to war never fail to please me. Simply because it showcases men who stood out in the burning sun by the thousands, ready to fight for loyalty and glory. They don’t hide in caves, they don’t send snipers. These men, the thousands of them, mobilizing, the war cries, the clash of metal, the ripping and slice of flesh are the few elements that make ancient wars so enjoyable to watch.

But there are several things that differentiate wars in between Alexander and the other like Troy and Gladiator. In Troy, the king stays behind the massive numbers of his army. Caesar pretty much did the same in Gladiator.

The Great Alexander, however, steps forward and shows his men the way. Greatest of kings, he lead the charge forward on his proud steed with a willpower that may well crush mountains. Well, not really, since he got owned by an elephant, heheh.

Still, Alexander was indeed no less than all the legend that he is known for. I must congratulate Mr. Farrell [sp?] on doing such a splendid job. Oh, and the best part of the movie? Angelina Jolie.

Mother to the Legend, she is as charismatic as she is sexy. She has a wicked and invincible love for her son. Nomatter how many times she was called a crazed woman, or treated badly for insulting his father, she loved Alexander with all her heart and her love never diminishes no matter how many years she has been separated from him. Seriously, if anyone asked me which is my favourite character in the movie, I’ll say it’s Alex’s mom. Proof of a maternal love powerful and strong as the diamonds that she wore.

Moment of the show?
When Alexander was giving a pep-talk to his men prior to the Babylon siege. Shows how personal, how close he is to his people. Micro-management, man. Micro-management.

With a good mix of good stuff, and fuck-ups, this has to be the weirdest movie I’ve seen. So much for ending 2004 with a good show, heheheh. I really wish I could catch Tom Hanks in The Terminal last time, oh well, too bad I guess.

I received some terrible news which I refuse to discuss because it caused me a great deal of depression. However, in an attempt to maintain a positive outlook on life, I watched a few episodes of South Park, play CS:S, and figured that I should share with you some jokes you can pull off to annoy your friends. Please note that these are jokes are meant to be told in Malay for maximum impact.

Apa dia ‘Jauh di mata, dekat di hati’?
Usus.

Saya ade 3 kepala,4 tangan dan 5 kaki…siapakah saya?
Pembohong.

Nak mencari sikit punye susah, bile dah dapat buang, ape bendanya?
Tahi hidung.

Apa benda bila masuk dia lurus, bila keluar dia bengkok?
Jari yang mengorek hidung/telinga.

Gajah terbang dengan apa?
Dengan susah payah.

Dalam banyak-banyak jam, jam apa yang memerlukan air untuk berfungsi?Jamban.

And last but not least, my personal all-time favourite [highlight to read answer];

Have a great week!

I came across the most annoying piece of genius available on the net through some pings on PPS.

Behold, This is NOT Pr0n. It’s actually a game of riddles, going as far as 81 levels. each level shows you page that has an image, an you are challenged to move on to the next page by various means, clicking, selecting, adress re-typing, a little googling and so much more. It really REALLY pushes your brain [and preserverance] to its limits.

I played something like this before, though it’s actually a hacking game, where each level shows youa black page, and a prompt to fill in a code. However, the only way to get through each level is to be equipped with an excellent command of programming languages. You absolutely HAVE to look at the source code [if you're unfamiliar with the term, a 'source' is a set of codes, like the one you can see in your blog template], it’s the only clue you have and you are tasked to look for security holes buried within the source.

The one I linked here doesn’t derive far, you have to find your way to the next by ANY means possible. Look at the pictures, look for clues, read the hints, dig through the forum for help. I assure you the satisfaction of going through each level is unbelieveable, especially once you figured it out without much help.

With LOTS of info from the forums, I got myself to level 10. I was too tired to go on, but I think I’ll again to go as far as 20. It’s really really challenging.

How far can YOU go?

I just installed a copy of Counter-strike: Source [CSS], thanks to the magic of BT.

I was excited to play well in CS that runs with the very chun HL2 engine [though HL2 itself died on me, but that's another story], seeing as how it performed on a friend’s machine. It seems that Sarah is capable of running HL2 pretty well, with no lag or FPS [frames-per-second, also called framerate] drop even in combat.

Sarah is basically on a 1.7GHz Pentium 4[hey, it's the best there was during my post-SPM days], 128MB GF4Ti 4200 with 768MB of system RAM. She even plays UT2004 on medium settings VERY well. However, the case is different for CSS.

Even at 640×480 and lowest graphic settings, Sarah screwed up like it did with Doom 3. Walking around was perfectly fine, but in combat, the FPS drops like to 5 or 10. I can’t even aim properly, and the crosshair doesn’t stabilize because I kept moving instead staying still [which is the ultimate shit when you try to aim at low FPS].

Since I had about 9 bots running, I set it run on Abovenormal priority. However, I still go through those crazy FPS drops!! I’ve been planning Sarah’s upgrade [mobo and processor] for a while, but financial hurdles are forcing me to delay it. So, if you know anythng that can help me overcome this pitiful fate of mine, do let me know!