Sigh. My feelings are so mixed up I’m beginning to jumble up my lines as well.
I know. I know. I should get over it. I just don’t know why. I’m not sure if she even visits this place anymore.

“Curiosity killed the cat, you know”
“What makes you think I am one?”
“well…”
“Just tell me. Please. I really need to know.”

She was right. Even if it didn’t kill me, it left me with a gaping wound. Just when I thought it healed, being the idiot that I am, I went digging around. I still remember that night. That very fateful night. I hated myself for being such an idiotic jerk that night.

“I am, sort of, seeing this guy, you know.”
“Okay…”
“But we’re not exactly here, nor there. Get what I mean?”

Curiosity dealt another blow on me yet again. At first I thought mentions of him wouldn’t bother me. If she happens to read this, I’m sure she’d be very freaked out and would be scared shit to even be within a radius of 100 metres from me. Surely, this undying obsession would scare anyone. I don’t know how to rid myself of this pain. Of course, a happy ending is out of the question. At least for me. And I confirmed this upon discovering him mentioning;

“…in the end i chose Yum Char as our dinner place for the evening. Nice calming decor; and comfy seats! (only because i can have her close to me without too much trouble… =p)”

“Hahaha, damn i’m blessed to have such an adorable girlfriend.”

I have always believed it when I hear them say ‘May the best man win’. I still do. Opportunity, ability, availabilty,intelligence and of course, charm. I wouldn’t say we were pitched against each other, but if it’s about winning, he sure pwned big.

“…and so, everyone lived happily ever after”

And my eyes won’t let me cry any silent tears.